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[cabbitzilla]

Thank you.

And yes, dolly, I was being maudlin, and yes it's what I scold you for and I should know better. I'll make no excuses; sometimes I get distracted and it pegs me between the eyes. *shrugs* Today's a little better... it's just dominated by sorrow and no small amount of pain.

I am trying to look forward. There's not a lot left behind me that's intact; the chaos field that envelops me has left only rubble strewn in my wake. There're financial concerns, therapeutic concerns, worries about making progress, worries about bringing the still loose ends to a proper close. But I'm looking forward.

Right this moment, I'm so tired I'm having trouble keeping my eyes focused. The hoped for final run today is shelved; I simply don't have the strength, and I'm NOT focused/aware enough to drive. Now that the back and hip spasms have abated, I'm going back to bed.

And... thank you. You know who you are.

Comments

[rowandoll.livejournal.com]

Dear, you're not in a position for progress or forward. Your progress is your next step. Your forward is the next hour. You have many people praying for you and giving you love. Step by step. Moment by moment. You're going to make it. We won't let you not.

[ginkage.livejournal.com]

*hug* :) I may not always be coherent, but I'm here, alanna.

[invader-tak-1.livejournal.com]

Keep us informed, every time you are offline more than few day I start wondering if you died, or worse........

[elisabeth.livejournal.com]

I'm alive, just completely exhausted.

[invader-tak-1.livejournal.com]

Like the very few friends I have in "your situation" I always worry about "cure happy" relatives.

"A mom who trys to commit you behind your back can make you a touch paranoid" So I'm always worried you are sooner or later going to have to fight off an "intervention" as if you didn't have enough problems now........

[elisabeth.livejournal.com]

Been there, done that.

Given that that 'intervention' resulted in the hospitalization of a cousin, done in by his own baseball bat, nobody seems to be in any great hurry to try again.

[invader-tak-1.livejournal.com]

Impressive, you will have to give me details on AIM at some point.