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Dec. 19th, 2004 04:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cabbitzillaThank you.
And yes, dolly, I was being maudlin, and yes it's what I scold you for and I should know better. I'll make no excuses; sometimes I get distracted and it pegs me between the eyes. *shrugs* Today's a little better... it's just dominated by sorrow and no small amount of pain.
I am trying to look forward. There's not a lot left behind me that's intact; the chaos field that envelops me has left only rubble strewn in my wake. There're financial concerns, therapeutic concerns, worries about making progress, worries about bringing the still loose ends to a proper close. But I'm looking forward.
Right this moment, I'm so tired I'm having trouble keeping my eyes focused. The hoped for final run today is shelved; I simply don't have the strength, and I'm NOT focused/aware enough to drive. Now that the back and hip spasms have abated, I'm going back to bed.
And... thank you. You know who you are.
And yes, dolly, I was being maudlin, and yes it's what I scold you for and I should know better. I'll make no excuses; sometimes I get distracted and it pegs me between the eyes. *shrugs* Today's a little better... it's just dominated by sorrow and no small amount of pain.
I am trying to look forward. There's not a lot left behind me that's intact; the chaos field that envelops me has left only rubble strewn in my wake. There're financial concerns, therapeutic concerns, worries about making progress, worries about bringing the still loose ends to a proper close. But I'm looking forward.
Right this moment, I'm so tired I'm having trouble keeping my eyes focused. The hoped for final run today is shelved; I simply don't have the strength, and I'm NOT focused/aware enough to drive. Now that the back and hip spasms have abated, I'm going back to bed.
And... thank you. You know who you are.
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Date: 2004-12-21 01:29 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-21 05:02 am (UTC)"A mom who trys to commit you behind your back can make you a touch paranoid" So I'm always worried you are sooner or later going to have to fight off an "intervention" as if you didn't have enough problems now........
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Date: 2004-12-21 05:15 am (UTC)Given that that 'intervention' resulted in the hospitalization of a cousin, done in by his own baseball bat, nobody seems to be in any great hurry to try again.
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Date: 2004-12-21 11:52 pm (UTC)