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Today falls into the 'can just barely move' category... pain levels are ... very high, several joints are actually -grinding-... no Faire for me this weekend. I really just want to crawl back into bed and pass out, but the honest truth is that I hurt too badly to do that. So here I sit, wrapped in a blanket, trying to type. *sigh* I really could use a good stiif drink or six....

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And the ultimate indignity... my dialup is flakier than hell.


HEY ALL YOU BASTARDS AT MINDSPRING/EARTHLINK!
As I've told your damned 'Technical Support' about fifty BAZILLION times, the Dialup POP's in Maryland SUCK ROCKS on rainy days! Since I've been a loyal customer for years, and brought my entire family in as well as friends (I've sent them nearly 40 other accounts worth of business) you'd think they'd DO SOMETHING about it. But no.... Ever since the vaunted 'merger' of Mindspring (that was -decent-) with Earthlink, SERVICE HAS UTTERLY SUCKED! FIX IT! I'M TIRED OF THIS BULLSCHIESSE!

For those of you considering looking for a new ISP, I DO NOT RECCOMEND EARTHLINK! Service sucks, and only one tech support person in four has a clue anymore.

/rant

Well, I'm going to recon to post this... and if it goes out again, I'll go play with the playstation. At least SONY makes something dependable...

*smooches to Matthew, thanks for the well wish, sweetie*

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You are Robin. You are VERY dependent on those around you, and have some definite homosexual tendencies. ...you forgot your skirt, Boy Wonder...
What's your superhero personality?
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*blinks* Er... okie... Well, I'll be over here, drooling at Batboy's behind.... :p

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There. Fixed the errant journal html. Sorry, wibbble...
Deleted the duplicate posting from a couple days back, not sure what happened there.
Time for a cig, I think. I wish the rain would go away.... in addition to kicking my pain levels way too high, it has a less than healthy impact on my emotional state. Right now, the world is very very bleak...

I'm tired of hurting.
I'm tired of knowing it won't get any better.
I'm tired of trying to 'be strong' and not whine about it all.
I'm tired of having old friends look at me as a lazy bum.
I'm tired of talking to former coworkers, and getting that 'you look pathetic' look from them.
I'm tired of being trapped in a 'can't move' situation at home.
I'm tired of being told by my housemate how much -she- hurts and how tired -she- is, when I /rarely/ make mention of my own situation.
I'm tired of being bound by my own honor to a no-win situation.

*sigh* God, I sound like the ultimate whiney spoiled kid. :( But it's the truth... the few folks that read my journal are all fairly aware of my current position. The Fibromyalgia diagnosis remains in place; no cure, medicate for life. The damage done by the strokes (3 of them, about 2 years ago) is... quite damning, sometimes. My mind is not intact, and it's galling. And for those I've not told: my doctor has given another tentative diagnosis - Myasthenia Gravis. It's unconfirmed, as I lack the fairly -sizeable- amounts of cash to have the neural function tests done... but it would explain quite a bit. Sudden muscle failures, sudden crippling disorientation... going to the store can be -real- exciting.

I probably shouldn't babble on like this, but I need to let it out somewhere. I guess putting it all here will at least let folks know what's going on, and why I'm so erratic. I'm sorry, darlings; I'm tired. Far more tired than a 35yo has /any/ right to be...

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Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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I must have a sign on my forehead or something...

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Piro or Largo?

You chose the introverted Nippon-o-phile Gaijin with a secret obbsession with reading "Girl Stories". He plays a girl on-line far too much, too. Go fig.

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Well, this one's amusing, anyway...


What character from Clue (The movie) are you? (now finished)
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What I Dream of Jeannie character are you? brought to you by Quizilla

Congratulations, you're Jeannie. You're bright and bubbly, and ever so friendly. Everyone loves you because you're so, well...loveable. You're not the brightest crayon in the box but so far, it hasn't bothered you.