Rage

[cabbitzilla]

It colors my thoughts, my mood, make my evening a murky cloud of seething ideas of vengeance.

I've been betrayed, by someone I thought I could trust. Someone who was close enough to me that they're in my friends list here on LJ. And I honestly don't know whether Sorrow or Homicidal Rage is more dominant in my mind.

I've had to draft an ultimatum for a game I admin... one that's got me in tears from anger, frustration, and pain. As soon as it's approved by the lad who's been working as my co-Admin, it'll be posted... which will be the beginning of the end.

I will /not/ allow someone to willfully defecate in my foyer. Ever. And that's all there is to it.

I'm so angry that I'm shaking. I'm going to step outside in the rain for a cigarette or three.

~Ellie

Comments

Here and there.

[meamgrimlock.livejournal.com]

*HUG*
I know the game. I loved the game. I left the game. I'm not there anymore, but I feel your pain. I've been there and done that (as the saying goes).

Are there any other B5 Games still open? Or will the death of B5Mush close the circle it opened? I wish I could help. I tried to help for two years. Yes, sometimes I was part of the problem, but I usually self-corrected ;-).

If you want to talk about exactly what happened, with someone who knows enough about the place to understand, but no longer talks to the people who habitate there (except you, of course), let me know. My time is short, but you are one of those I'll cram sideways into the odd-shaped hole.

I don't know what happened, so I don't know what to say to help ease the pain and frustration. I'm sorry that whatever it was happened.

Question, tho: Is it worth killing the game? Could you not just step down and vacate and 'buy a new house'? I don't play there anymore, so it doesn't matter to me, but I imagine the 8 people who still habitate there are old-timers like yourself and Frances - and unless half of them pissed you off, it's not really fair to the others who want to have a nice place to visit :).

As always, Love is being sent in your direction!

-Grimmy

[nightambre.livejournal.com]

Holy HELL, hon. what the hell happend? O.O; Feel free to call me, babe. You have my number right? If not, tell me nad I'll call you. *HUGS AND GIVES MUCH AND MUCH LOVE!*

Re: Here and there.

[wibbble]

> Are there any other B5 Games still open?

There's at least one!

'Rising Star' - http://www.aleriel.org/risingstar/

It's the direct descendant of 'The Last Best Hope', which started, umm... I really don't remember now.

I played B5MUSH back then, and started as a newbie staffer on a newbie game - TLBH.

RS isn't busy, but it gets constant RP. We're kind of strict about our chargen, so it tends to be people who are intelligent and coherent, which is always good.

There's other games, too, but I don't have anything to do with this ones. I'm Felix on RS, and if I'm not on, it means that my bloody DSL modem has timed the connection out /again/. :o)

[rynchan.livejournal.com]

*holds close*

*hugs*
Ryn

[ginkage.livejournal.com]

Mew? I'll readily confess to being one of the clueless masses, but I'm always available for a talk if I'm online.

[elisabeth.livejournal.com]

*meep*
Sweetie, you left the game before I could even -respond- to you...

Even though I don't understand...

[llieno.livejournal.com]

*huggles tightly*

[kangitanka3.livejournal.com]

*hugs, followed by sandwiches*

Love,
~~Kt3 of the Well-Meaning Non Sequitur~~

I don't know much

[stacy1075.livejournal.com]

but I'm sorry that something has gotten you so stressed and upset. If you want to talk to me, I know I won't fully understand what's going on but I will listen.
Stacy

[ginkage.livejournal.com]

I had to leave, dear. I had no better outlet for my emotions at the time and didn't want to thrust more of them on people than I had. I'm sorry, the timing isn't your fault, but it sucks.