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Yesterday's enraged 'how much more?' was answered today. Not a global answer, not a national answer, not even a state answer. No, this was a very personal answer unrelated to national politics in any way. For the second time in sixty days, I'm losing my therapist.

I'd just gotten to the point of genuinely opening up to Robin, having built up a bit of trust in the six weeks I'd been seeing her. And thanks to gross mismanagement and the cookie cutter mentality of the clinic's board, she's leaving Omni to take a job in Baltimore. They were interfering in her diagnosis of clients and trying to legislate what could and could not be discussed during a private therapy session... something that's going to be intolerable to anyone who truly belongs in the profession.

This is the fourth therapist in six months to have quit citing these same issues. I was clients of two of them, and knew/interacted with a handful of clients of the other two. It's not one person being uptight; one is an accident, two is coincidence, three is a pattern. Four is a malign pattern. :(

I get one more session with Robin. I'll miss her; she's a genuinely nice person, and her approach seemed to be working well for me. Next week I'll find out if I'm being dumped directly to another LCSW, or if I'll be tossed into limbo for when they finally find another person to hire. Of the five of us that had been in the GID group, four of us had been clients of Tina's. The odd one was a patient of Stephanie's, focused on issues more pressing than the gender question that plagued all five of us. Of the four remaining, one left Omni entirely to follow Tina, having access to private monies to pay her with, and the other three of us were given to Robin.

All three of us really liked Robin. She'd had field experience with GID clients before coming to Omni, so she actually had a clue to begin with rather than being someone we needed to gently teach. Warm, friendly, and perceptive, all three of us relaxed and started trying to get back to what we were doing; Robin was a good fit. And now we lose her, and get to start all over again. And I know from speaking quietly with the receptionists that I befriended that there are no other 'qualified' individuals at Omni; the other therapist that's leaving was the only other option.

Lost in the confused maze of my mind, I've now had two doors slammed in my face. I'm going to go curl up and cry now, if that's all right with you folk.

~e

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