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Feb. 14th, 2004 04:35 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cabbitzillaIf you're expecting cheerfulness, quirky humor, or other amusements you should just keep looking elsewhere, okay? This won't be it.
*shakes her head slowly* I'm watching the proliferation of the 'Marriage is Love' banner... but you'll not see it here. While I certainly support the notion of folks being able to be with whomever the fuck they want, I'm not feeling the expressed sentiment. As I told my therapist candidly yesterday during the 'crisis work-in' appointment I had, marriage is something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. And I know that's the emotional fatigue and bitterness speaking, but there's not a whole lot left at the moment.
Just about everyone I care about has someone special to be with. With a small number of exceptions, most of them are -with- someone now or scheduled to be with someone later... and it's difficult to maintain even a semblance of cheer when everyone around me is having a commercially fueled love-in. One very dear pair is separated by several thousand miles. My heart goes out to them. Another that's precious to me is suddenly single again; hugs to you, sweetie.
And me? I'm alone... making today really no bloody different from most of yesterday and the day before that. The only key difference is that yesterday I was 'alone with Megan in the back ignoring me because I wasn't of immediate use to her' and today I'm 'alone because everyone's off doing things'.
*sighs and curls up* And I'm apparently feeling quite sorry for myself. :/ I'm going to just shut up and work on quitting whining, before this turns into a 'the world hates me' rant. I need to learn to stay in bed when this mood hits.
*shakes her head slowly* I'm watching the proliferation of the 'Marriage is Love' banner... but you'll not see it here. While I certainly support the notion of folks being able to be with whomever the fuck they want, I'm not feeling the expressed sentiment. As I told my therapist candidly yesterday during the 'crisis work-in' appointment I had, marriage is something I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. And I know that's the emotional fatigue and bitterness speaking, but there's not a whole lot left at the moment.
Just about everyone I care about has someone special to be with. With a small number of exceptions, most of them are -with- someone now or scheduled to be with someone later... and it's difficult to maintain even a semblance of cheer when everyone around me is having a commercially fueled love-in. One very dear pair is separated by several thousand miles. My heart goes out to them. Another that's precious to me is suddenly single again; hugs to you, sweetie.
And me? I'm alone... making today really no bloody different from most of yesterday and the day before that. The only key difference is that yesterday I was 'alone with Megan in the back ignoring me because I wasn't of immediate use to her' and today I'm 'alone because everyone's off doing things'.
*sighs and curls up* And I'm apparently feeling quite sorry for myself. :/ I'm going to just shut up and work on quitting whining, before this turns into a 'the world hates me' rant. I need to learn to stay in bed when this mood hits.
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Date: 2004-02-14 09:49 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-14 10:22 pm (UTC)The world doesn't know what it's missing...
*hugs again*
Ryn
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Date: 2004-02-14 11:17 pm (UTC)I love you.
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Date: 2004-02-14 11:59 pm (UTC)...but do you really think that a "commercially fueled love-in" is desirable?
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Date: 2004-02-15 01:08 am (UTC)http://www.livejournal.com/users/lyss/274116.html?mode=reply
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Date: 2004-02-15 07:54 pm (UTC)