Several years ago, I made an attempt to get back into the MUSH/MUCK community by entering one of the largest around. I figured that if I was in that large an environment, I would find someone I could talk to and hang with.
I think I clocked it at 15 minutes.
30 minutes in, I was completely pegged. This person knew me from top to toe, having gone through my walls like a knife through butter. Rather than attacking me, this person simply saw a kindred spirit.
We became friends. I tossed some of my odd interests her way, and she responded enthusiastically. We shared histories, and found points of commonality that we never expected.
We're not alike. In many ways we are drastically different. But it's definitely been a relationship of siblings, sometimes rocky sometimes wonderful.
I've always had a hard time accepting the love I received for her. As she had me pegged ages ago, her love always managed to hit the part of my soul I was desperate to keep from ever having love. It was often my fear at fault, and not her ardor.
She has been all I could ever ask for in a friend and sibling. No matter what, she has always made me smile.
I love her, and I'm glad to celebrate the day she was born.
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Date: 2003-04-27 09:15 pm (UTC)I think I clocked it at 15 minutes.
30 minutes in, I was completely pegged. This person knew me from top to toe, having gone through my walls like a knife through butter. Rather than attacking me, this person simply saw a kindred spirit.
We became friends. I tossed some of my odd interests her way, and she responded enthusiastically. We shared histories, and found points of commonality that we never expected.
We're not alike. In many ways we are drastically different. But it's definitely been a relationship of siblings, sometimes rocky sometimes wonderful.
I've always had a hard time accepting the love I received for her. As she had me pegged ages ago, her love always managed to hit the part of my soul I was desperate to keep from ever having love. It was often my fear at fault, and not her ardor.
She has been all I could ever ask for in a friend and sibling. No matter what, she has always made me smile.
I love her, and I'm glad to celebrate the day she was born.