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Feb. 2nd, 2003 10:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cabbitzillaOkay, the rage faded a bit. Basically that means things will likely go on as they have. Lucky me, having a conscience.
Megan likes to pick fights with me. I'm not sure /why/, but some of the folks who've spent time around us can likely verify her habits. I don't know what she gets out of it, but it must be some sort of hefty endorphin rush or something; she's like a crack ho scavenging for a hit. Tonight she waited until she was going to bed to do it, a calculated verbal slap that nearly got her decked. I've got a sneaking suspicion that she's completely oblivious of the fact that I've been pushed right to my 'mayhem' limits. My smoking has exploded to 3/4 a pack per day... from my 'normal' of 4, maybe 5 cigs for the whole day.... the smoke bothers her, so I can be assured of some peace when I'm outside. And I think that's how I'm going to handle this: I will find elsewhere to be during the evenings she's home.
Right at the moment, I'm not in a position to do a damned thing about it... short of just walking away from the investment I have in this house. And I am -not- willing to do that. I know there're folks who maintain that I'd be better off without it anyway, but I simply don't see it that way.
I am so incredibly tired... I really didn't need this tonight. Gee, thanks, Megan.
Megan likes to pick fights with me. I'm not sure /why/, but some of the folks who've spent time around us can likely verify her habits. I don't know what she gets out of it, but it must be some sort of hefty endorphin rush or something; she's like a crack ho scavenging for a hit. Tonight she waited until she was going to bed to do it, a calculated verbal slap that nearly got her decked. I've got a sneaking suspicion that she's completely oblivious of the fact that I've been pushed right to my 'mayhem' limits. My smoking has exploded to 3/4 a pack per day... from my 'normal' of 4, maybe 5 cigs for the whole day.... the smoke bothers her, so I can be assured of some peace when I'm outside. And I think that's how I'm going to handle this: I will find elsewhere to be during the evenings she's home.
Right at the moment, I'm not in a position to do a damned thing about it... short of just walking away from the investment I have in this house. And I am -not- willing to do that. I know there're folks who maintain that I'd be better off without it anyway, but I simply don't see it that way.
I am so incredibly tired... I really didn't need this tonight. Gee, thanks, Megan.
