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May. 26th, 2005 12:51 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cabbitzillaWith tremendous amounts of help from Crystal, I now have a living room again. It's about 80-85% done now, and a final push tomorrow will finish the job.
Provided I can get some sleep. Lack of sleep has been a frequent problem for me of late... it's gotten to the point where I'm back to averaging an hour or two each night and then dragging through the day determined to get -something- done. I try very hard not to 'dabble' with my medication dosages... but after twelve consecutive nights, I was pushed to where I had to. Quadrupling the sleep meds netted me just a bit over nine hours of sleep with a half hour gap in the middle, Monday night.
Quadrupled. Instead of the one-or-the-other choice between trazadone and amitriptyline, I doubled them both and swallowed it all. Nine hours.
Last I checked, elephant tranq darts weren't legal to buy over the counter. So how the hell'm I supposed to get any sleep when a 'normal' night of sleep requires four times the current dosage... and then the following night (last night) I'm RIGHT back on the one hour thing again. I doubled just the ami tonight, and am hoping for three or four; enough to put me back on my feet for the final push on the living room and entranceway.
*shrugs*
Other bits:
I'm going to go to bed now, before the crash gets worse. Maybe I'll get some sleep, and be able to attack tomorrow properly. Maybe it'll let me get all the rest of the little things done properly.
And maybe a handful of sawdust will pave the way to the medical procedures I need to have any hope of sanity again.
Provided I can get some sleep. Lack of sleep has been a frequent problem for me of late... it's gotten to the point where I'm back to averaging an hour or two each night and then dragging through the day determined to get -something- done. I try very hard not to 'dabble' with my medication dosages... but after twelve consecutive nights, I was pushed to where I had to. Quadrupling the sleep meds netted me just a bit over nine hours of sleep with a half hour gap in the middle, Monday night.
Quadrupled. Instead of the one-or-the-other choice between trazadone and amitriptyline, I doubled them both and swallowed it all. Nine hours.
Last I checked, elephant tranq darts weren't legal to buy over the counter. So how the hell'm I supposed to get any sleep when a 'normal' night of sleep requires four times the current dosage... and then the following night (last night) I'm RIGHT back on the one hour thing again. I doubled just the ami tonight, and am hoping for three or four; enough to put me back on my feet for the final push on the living room and entranceway.
*shrugs*
Other bits:
- Fuzzy's machine problems are actually issues with PeoplePC's servers being overloaded. He snickered when I suggested he get a -real- ISP, but at least I don't have to drive down to fix the silly thing when there's nothing wrong with it.
- The quote for Hobbes' beast came in a couple hundred dollars less than he'd feared. Hopefully he'll be reasonable and not insist on spending it on bleeding edge tech he'll never miss (or properly use even if it he gets it). I love the boy to death, but the Bigger! Brighter! Newer! fixation he has is enough to make me want to take a crowbar to his noggin.
- My mood remains terribly unstable. It levels off if I've got someone here with me, at least for a bit, but as soon as they're gone I crash hard again. The lack of sleep makes it difficult if not impossible to fend off
- Guild Wars remains an excellent foil to hide in. It's got enough plot to keep me hooked and not dwelling on the mess that is here... though tonight I'm so tired that I just stared at the screen for a bit when I logged in.
I'm going to go to bed now, before the crash gets worse. Maybe I'll get some sleep, and be able to attack tomorrow properly. Maybe it'll let me get all the rest of the little things done properly.
And maybe a handful of sawdust will pave the way to the medical procedures I need to have any hope of sanity again.
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Date: 2005-05-26 06:09 am (UTC)