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cabbitzilla) wrote2003-07-16 05:00 pm
cabbitzilla) wrote2003-07-16 05:00 pm
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I'm in better shape today. Honest. I... seem to be very cyclical in nature, and ... while medications can slow or accelerate it, even being part of Lady Winter's Household couldn't quell it completely. I don't mean to worry folks, honest I don't. Given the rapidly approaching convention on top of everything I normally deal with, I'm kinda surprised I made it as far as I did. While my mood is a bit somber today, it's at least coherent and sensible. *shrugs* As sensible as I get, anyway. The bunny runs deeper than the wolf.
And today, and I pull myself back up out of the chasm, I find several others laboring with loads that threaten to squash them. My heart and prayers go out to M and J both, fighting different issues in different places, bur still part of my family. Hugs and kisses to B and to J, who helped pull me out of last night's tailspin. Cuddles to momma's little girl, virtual kneesocks to my 'little sister', safe travel to my twin (who flies tomorrow morning), and heartfelt thank yous to everyone who answered last night's garbled plea. Sometimes I forget that I'm not all alone anymore; after so many years of living in the shadows, it's hard to remember sometimes.
So I'll remember to take my medicines, and keep trying to keep moving. I haven't stopped yet, and I've not given up. I just get blue and maudlin sometimes; fortunately I have some -very- tolerant family who'll put up with such nonsense. If I can remember it, I'll buy a lottery ticket for the Saturday night drawing... an infusion of cash would help considerably on other fronts, and it's only a buck...
*hugs*
~ellie-chan
And today, and I pull myself back up out of the chasm, I find several others laboring with loads that threaten to squash them. My heart and prayers go out to M and J both, fighting different issues in different places, bur still part of my family. Hugs and kisses to B and to J, who helped pull me out of last night's tailspin. Cuddles to momma's little girl, virtual kneesocks to my 'little sister', safe travel to my twin (who flies tomorrow morning), and heartfelt thank yous to everyone who answered last night's garbled plea. Sometimes I forget that I'm not all alone anymore; after so many years of living in the shadows, it's hard to remember sometimes.
So I'll remember to take my medicines, and keep trying to keep moving. I haven't stopped yet, and I've not given up. I just get blue and maudlin sometimes; fortunately I have some -very- tolerant family who'll put up with such nonsense. If I can remember it, I'll buy a lottery ticket for the Saturday night drawing... an infusion of cash would help considerably on other fronts, and it's only a buck...
*hugs*
~ellie-chan