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cabbitzilla) wrote2000-12-15 12:14 pm
cabbitzilla) wrote2000-12-15 12:14 pm
Ah HAH!
Macaroni and cheese: the meal of... housebound dolls. Or something.
*pacepacepace* I hope things go well tonight. There're a whole lot of things waiting for a positive resolution, but I need to know Megan's -happy- before I can move on with what I need to do. I won't leave her hanging, regardless. What I see, and what all the throws point to... It would be wonderful. I know she'd be as happy as she'd ever been, more than likely happier than she's ever been with me. I... I never meant, never intended, never envisioned this kind of chaos. She's put up with so very much, and tried to be supportive... and I'm off in left field somewhere, discovering just how badly I've fouled things up.
Tonight can change all of that... if it just works properly, then everything will sort out in a few short weeks. Megan'll be happy, she'll be well off, her folks will be shocked at first, but pleased that she's gotten away from me, her extended family will be thrilled to hear that I'm gone, and maybe, just maybe... maybe things will sort out for me as well. Not being able to work is a major problem, but if things go well with the LTD from the college and SSDI, I'll at least be able to live halfway decent. Please, Bright Lady... the cards speak of it... I see it... she can -feel- it.... please let it be.
*pacepacepace* I hope things go well tonight. There're a whole lot of things waiting for a positive resolution, but I need to know Megan's -happy- before I can move on with what I need to do. I won't leave her hanging, regardless. What I see, and what all the throws point to... It would be wonderful. I know she'd be as happy as she'd ever been, more than likely happier than she's ever been with me. I... I never meant, never intended, never envisioned this kind of chaos. She's put up with so very much, and tried to be supportive... and I'm off in left field somewhere, discovering just how badly I've fouled things up.
Tonight can change all of that... if it just works properly, then everything will sort out in a few short weeks. Megan'll be happy, she'll be well off, her folks will be shocked at first, but pleased that she's gotten away from me, her extended family will be thrilled to hear that I'm gone, and maybe, just maybe... maybe things will sort out for me as well. Not being able to work is a major problem, but if things go well with the LTD from the college and SSDI, I'll at least be able to live halfway decent. Please, Bright Lady... the cards speak of it... I see it... she can -feel- it.... please let it be.